Ron, my mother and I all moved to Catalina Island as most of you know last June. After giving it 4 months we have all decided we want to go home. I miss Moab so much. Catalina has always been a dream of mine but the reality of living here is not at all what I expected. There are so many changes happening right now and business owners that have been here for 30+ years are losing their place because ultimately The Island Company owns everything. All the places I have loved my whole life are disappearing. And the backstabbing is the worst I have ever seen. I do believe its because resources are few and far between so anyone new to the island is an automatic threat.
I will always love this place and my sweet memories of my summers here with my grandmother will never fade for me but people say you can never really get back home and they are right. So in March or April we will make our way back to Utah. My mother will live with my daughter Jessica and her fiancee in Blanding and Ron and I will go home to our little paradise in Moab.
Utah spoiled me….especially Moab. I miss the vast open spaces and the hiking and the people that I grew to love in Moab and in Blanding.
I have not been happy in a very long time. It began when my dad got so sick I had to move in with my parents until he passed away a year ago. I then moved my mother up to Moab with me while we arranged to buy the house in Catalina and had it remodeled. Then we moved to Catalina and I feel almost claustrophobic. I miss the antelope and the red rock and the canyons, sunsets, sunrises and the rugged beauty that you cannot find anywhere else in the world.
So Catalina will continue to be a place I visit upon occasion because a part of me will always belong here but that was the child in me. The adult in me longs for Moab.
I feel so blessed to have had the opportunity to try it and its been a wonderful experience but its not for me. I was listening to my mother call all her friends in Blanding today and I found there were tears in my eyes at the overwhelming joy they all expressed to have my mother come home and I know my mother needed to hear that. I just got back from Moab and I have not lost my place there either. I am wanted and needed there and that is where I belong.
So once again I will start over and rebuild my life but this time I have nothing that is drawing me away from Moab….I finally realized it is my home and that is where my heart and spirit is.